Yes, I’m thankful I had a panic attack.
Crazy, don’t you think?
What is there to be thankful for about that?
Thankful for the awful, out of control feeling that seems to take over your mind, nerves, heart and breathing?
Thankful for feeling like you are too young to die at this moment?
Maybe you haven’t experienced a panic attack. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. I hope and pray I never have another one.
So why am I thankful for having one?
It was a wake up call.
Life has been good. We’ve been comfortable. Husband’s retirement has been a blessing. We’ve been having the life of ease.
Then life changed.
- Blood pressure was too high.
- Trip to Urgent Care.
- Next morning, right side tingling and numb feeling.
- Trip to the ER. All tests are normal.
- Doctor visits, Specialist visits, tests and more tests
- Mini stroke
I thought I was staying calm and strong through all of this uncertainty with my husband. I was confident he would be ok. I believe God was with us and He was giving the doctors wisdom. But my mind was going off to “what if” land.
Life started to calm down once again and we were getting back to normal. The morning of my Uncle Bill’s Memorial service something came over me that was unlike anything I have ever felt before. I felt like I was dying. I can’t even really explain it other than being a terrible, out of control feeling. I felt like my breathing would stop. We went to the service and I could hardly talk to anyone. I stood in the back in case I had to leave. As soon as the service was over I called my doctor. I explained to her what happened. I told her about John’s episode the last few weeks. She said I had a panic attack. I denied it telling her I was not panicky about anything. She explained a panic attack, and then I understood. Yes, it was one.
Back to why I am thankful.
Like I said, it was a wake up call.
I woke up taking better care of myself. Stopping bad habits, changing my diet and exercising more.
I woke up to depending on God more and not take Him for granted so much.
I’m different today. I appreciate little things more.
I appreciate my husband a lot more! I was imagining life without him. He’s been talking about moving. Maybe back to Ohio. Where it’s cold and they get snow. I hate the cold. But you know what? I don’t care where I live as long as I am with my best friend, my husband. He promised me to keep me warm. 🙂
Yes, I am thankful for the panic attack, the wake up call. God used this to get me back on track. And for that I am humbly thankful. Thankful for my life today, with my husband.
Lord, I pray for those who are experiencing anxiety and panic attacks. They may not even know it. I pray health and healing. Give us the courage to step away from bad habits that destroy this amazing body you gave us. Help us to have the desire and commitment to exercise. Give us wisdom in the stress filled times. I’m grateful our health is better today. May we have many more healthy years together. In Jesus Name. Amen
Philippians 4:6-7 The Message (MSG)
6-7 Don’t fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God’s wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It’s wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.